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I am feeling a little grumpy lately. I know that it is pregnancy, plus I have always been a very emotional person. I am so excited that our little boy is almost here, but I am SO scared of giving birth. It probably sounds silly because, after all, I have done this before. But it is scarier this time, because I know what is coming. I am really snapping at people a lot. I mean, not all the time, I am not a monster :) But enough that it is upsetting me. I find that I have very little patience with my mother, especially. She seems to know exactly what buttons to push to drive me crazy, and I am definitely letting her get to me. I don't think she is doing it on purpose, I am taking complete responsibility. Well alright, I will place some of the blame on my RAGING HORMONES again :) But, I need to get a grip! I haven't really had much to blog about lately and when I sat down today this is what came out. So, obviously, I need to resolve this issue. As usual I feel better just writing it out, I guess I should blog more often. I will make a conscious goal to be kinder to my mother. After all, who needs the bad Karma? If I am ugly to my mother, I may be dealing with a really cranky baby for a very long time :)Happy thoughts :)
I have been a little sick this weekend. It is a really yucky sinus infection or something, so I have a wonderful headache :) My daughter is sick too, poor baby. I am so glad that I am in a better frame of mind lately. Before, if I got sick, I would hide under the covers and feel miserable and sorry for myself. But not now. I refuse to feel worse than I have to. I think healthy thoughts, I take care of myself and I go on with my routine. I mean, I feel like I am like twelve months pregnant right now, so it is a little more difficult, but I still do my best. I used to take time out of my day to focus on how crappy I was feeling, and now I refuse to do it. I will focus on the positive, even when I am feeling under the weather, and I really do feel better faster. I was thinking about this the other day. The fact that I used to waste time on negative thoughts and feelings, when I should have been focusing on positive things instead. It actually occurred to me when I was reading a post on the pregnancy site I visit. A woman was talking about how her husband is going away in April, and when she marked it on the calendar she realized it was the one year anniversary of her mother's death. She was unsure if she wanted her husband to go away, because she planned on being upset on this day. I was thinking that it seems weird to me that people schedule time for sadness. I understand that it would be a rough day, I would be upset too. But why are we so much more likely to schedule sadness than joy? I have decided that I will not 'schedule' sadness anymore. I mean when it comes I will feel it, and deal with it, and experience it. But I will no longer plan for it. I am choosing to plan for happiness and joy. I won't hide from sadness, but I won't go looking for it either!Have a great day :)
I am up a little bit earlier than usual this morning and I am glad to have the extra time to get ready for my day. I got up with my husband and now I have the time I need to just relax and enjoy a cup of tea before the chaos starts :)
I am really trying to live my life positively. I have been doing really well with this, but the last little while has been a bit tough. Maybe I should explain that I am pregnant and I totally blame any of my inconsistencies on RAGING HORMONES :)
Last night I had a really terrible dream and I was having a hard time letting it go and moving on to a more positive frame of mind. So I decided to make a cup of tea and sit down at the computer and just let it out. I am already feeling better. I guess it may just be enough to reaffirm my positive goals to myself, and tea always helps too.
I plan on having a great day, I will be on time and relaxed for work, and I will interact with people in a positive and friendly manner. Even when they resist :)
Well I guess I will go and get a jump on my morning, I can't wait to begin my fabulous day.
Hope everyone has a bright and shiny day, I will!
