Cleaning Up!

I have been feeling out of sorts lately. I don't usually use that phrase, but I don't know how else to describe it.
I was grumpy, irritable and just feeling altogether dissatisfied. I couldn't figure it out. I have everything I thought I always wanted and life is going great.
The only change is that I have been going deeper while trying to work out some of my personal issues and I have really been trying to figure out who I am. I am reading some amazing books and articles. I am learning a lot of helpful new affirmations and visualization techniques, and I feel like I am really heading in the right direction.
So why am I feeling so junky???
Today while I was having my shower I think I figured it out. It is my perfectionism taking over!
You may be wondering why the shower triggered this revelation but it will all make perfect sense in a minute, trust me;)
OK, so one of my stops on this journey of self-discovery was to the Fly lady. I really love her group and have received a lot of very helpful and informative e-mails since I joined.
Well last week as I was reading my fly lady e-mails I came across one from a woman who had written in about her shower.
Apparently she had a really dirty shower and she kept putting off cleaning it because the thought of doing the whole thing until it was perfect was overwhelming. She finally realized that her perfectionism was taking over and that some scrubbing is better than no scrubbing. If she could just give up trying to be perfect and use baby steps eventually it would be done.
I am sure this is what I have been doing to myself.
I have been so bogged down with trying to be perfect or with being overwhelmed by the amount of things I need to work through. I wanted to fix all of my problems NOW and I wasn't getting anywhere.
So in the shower I clued in. Instead of getting frustrated and overwhelmed at how much work, or self-improving, I have to do I need to start small. I need to take baby steps. I need to do a little at a time and eventually I will get there.
I am on my way and there is no time limit. I plan on enjoying this journey, so I will not ruin it by trying to make it perfect. I am going to enjoy myself every step of the way. I am so grateful for all of my experiences.

Today I am especially grateful because I learned something about myself....and my shower is really clean:)

Here I Go

So I have been wanting to blog for a very long time. Today I decided that I was just going to do it. I was feeling inspired and so I just dove in. Not very like me, you should know that right off. I am a complete planner. Anyway, I set up my blog and I decorated it (which I love), but then I was lost. I had no idea what else to do. I always have all of these ideas and creative urges fighting for space in my brain, and then all of a sudden there was quiet. Writer's block???
I decided to go browsing other blogs, but I am not sure that was helpful. I just started over-analyzing my own and rethinking the whole setup :) Another thing you should know about me is that I do that A LOT. The over-analyzing thing I mean, and I guess if I am going to be completely honest I also second-guess myself quite a bit too:)
So after all of this I decided to just go with it. I am diving in and seeing what comes from it. After all the whole point, for me anyway, is to discover myself. What better way to do that than by just letting it all out? I am so excited to learn all my secrets.

This is the first step, I plan to really enjoy this journey.
You can come along if you want to :)