Next Stop!!!

Still feeling good :) I LOVE when that happens. I am letting myself be and it is so nice. I am just enjoying. It is so good when I am in tune with myself and choosing to be happy. I took a step out of my comfort zone this week and started a weight loss blog. That is a really big deal for me. I definitely feel like this is the area I need to focus on right now. Health and fitness are my next destination on this journey of mine. It is my time to feel great and actually LIVE my life.

I hope everyone is having a beautiful day :)

Oh Happy Day!

I am feeling fabulous :) It is beautiful out today, I am loving myself and everything is bright and shiny. Yay for spring! Or maybe, Yay for me. I have been making a few changes and I am loving how good I feel. I am not even going to worry about how much farther I have to go, or what other obstacles I may encounter. I am just going to enjoy this amazing feeling I have today. I never seem to give myself time to enjoy the great parts of my journey, I skip over them and move on to my next issue. Well today it feels really good to just let it be :) I am happy! It feels really good. I am going to make a huge effort to live my life with an 'attitude of gratitude'. I haven't been focused on this for a while and it was really bringing me down. Today I am grateful for my strength, for love, for spending time with my family and for the sun.


Sending out positive and happy thoughts today :)

On The Road Again!

Lately I have been going through a lot of changes. You wouldn't know it to look at me, because they are all internal. But I am learning so much about who I am and who I want to be. I am trying to create my life exactly how I want it.
I think it must be natural that I have been having so many ups and downs lately. This is how change occurs, I guess. It is not just a straight and easy path, it is a bumpy and winding road.
I feel like a lot of my time on this journey has been spent sitting on the side of the road and waiting for someone to come along with a map.
Or backtracking and getting lost!
I guess what I am trying to say is that for me, and probably everyone, change is hard. I spend a lot of my time thinking I am not getting anywhere at all.
But then I will have a breakthrough, and all of a sudden I am off again. With a full tank :)
I had one of these moments (or breakthroughs) last night.
I was talking to my husband and he said something to me that hurt my feelings. He didn't mean to and he probably isn't even aware that he did. I was thinking about it after and I realized that what he said is something I am always telling him about me. Just one of those things I ALWAYS say about myself. Like 'I am a so lazy' or 'I should do this' or 'I never finish anything I start'. Little, silly, negative things that I am continuously throwing out there.
He was just innocently throwing it back to me.
Then I realized that all of the things that my family say to me that hurt are things I have said to them about me! It occurred to me that I am giving people weapons to hurt me with. I am giving them power over me and then wondering why they use it.
I am letting my lack of self confidence rule me and I am basically telling people to treat me like garbage. I said this to my husband and he said "that is what I have been saying to you forever". Well, okay then, I am listening :)
I guess this is one of those 'easy little things' I have been missing out on!
So I have decided that I will not help anyone put me down. I will not give them the weapons to use against me. I will not say anything negative about myself. Even the littlest thing can come back at me and cause me pain, especially when I hear it from someone else.
I am going to take back my power and be the person I want to be. I will not hide behind excuses and be afraid of change. I am going to be in charge of my life and I will start with loving me.

So, I guess I am on the road again! It feels good :)

A Fresh Start!

I was looking through my pictures again this morning and I thought I would share these ones. I remember this day clearly. It was so beautiful. The air felt fresh and crisp and everything looked so clean and bright. Looking back through these pictures brought those feelings right back to me. It was just exactly what I needed today. I am going to keep thinking how great I felt that day and take some of those great feelings with me throughout today.

I hope you enjoy them too, they make me think of a fresh start :)