Create

Okay, honestly, I am completely off track right now. But I feel so excited about all of my possibilities. I am not eating the way I should, I am not living the life I know that I want to and yet I am still feeling excitement. I know that the possibilities are endless, and I can't wait to visualize my future full of happiness and gratitude and surprises. I can't wait to bring it into reality. I read today about vision boards, and it reminded me that I had planned to do one for myself ages ago. I want one for my future, things like home and health and family. I also want one for financial abundance and possibly my future career. I am so glad that I read about vision boards today because now I feel like I will finally get focused on doing this. I feel a little flame of excitement burning inside of me. If just imagining my vision board can make me feel this positive and excited, imagine how well it will work for me when I have actually created it. I know what is important to me and I visualize as often as I can about how I want my life to be, I am so excited to add this extra tool to my visualization. Creating this board will make me so much more powerful in my visualizing activities. I cannot wait - so off I go to get started.

The possibilities are endless - I love that :)

Getting on Track :)

Wow, I have not posted in a LONG time. I have been a little busy the last few months. We had our beautiful baby boy at the beginning of April. He is so sweet and we all love him like crazy. Our Daughter cannot get enough of him. I am very happy, but lately I have noticed that I am losing more and more of my positive outlook. I haven't been working at it. I need to remember to work at it. I am definitely happy, but I forget that I need to constantly live life with an attitude of gratitude. I know life is so much better when I do. I can't just sit back and say "life is perfect, I have everything I need and want". I have to constantly be grateful for what I have, and I need to actively work at being the positive, healthy and happy person I know that I am. After all it is so worth it. I will start today. I am going to make a list of ten things to be grateful for and I am going to be grateful :)

So happy to be getting back on track :)

Oh Baby!

I haven't written in quite a while. Things have been pretty busy around here. Getting ready for the baby and spending a lot of quality time with our daughter.
I am starting to get a little nervous about my delivery, but I am sure it will go smoothly :) There is some positive thinking!
As of now my doctor is saying that I will be induced on the 6th, so I have two weeks to go. Time has really flown.
I feel good, and I think we are almost ready around here. I kind of wish it was May though and I was already finished, hee hee!
I am looking for ways to use visualization during my delivery, because I am trying to avoid meds. I am sure I will do wonderfully, and my husband will be there so that is all I need.
Anyway, I am obviously preoccupied with baby stuff right now, so I guess that is it for today.

Sending positive thoughts to everyone :)

RAGING HORMONES??

I am feeling a little grumpy lately. I know that it is pregnancy, plus I have always been a very emotional person.
I am so excited that our little boy is almost here, but I am SO scared of giving birth. It probably sounds silly because, after all, I have done this before. But it is scarier this time, because I know what is coming.
I am really snapping at people a lot. I mean, not all the time, I am not a monster :) But enough that it is upsetting me.
I find that I have very little patience with my mother, especially. She seems to know exactly what buttons to push to drive me crazy, and I am definitely letting her get to me. I don't think she is doing it on purpose, I am taking complete responsibility. Well alright, I will place some of the blame on my RAGING HORMONES again :) But, I need to get a grip!
I haven't really had much to blog about lately and when I sat down today this is what came out. So, obviously, I need to resolve this issue.
As usual I feel better just writing it out, I guess I should blog more often.
I will make a conscious goal to be kinder to my mother. After all, who needs the bad Karma? If I am ugly to my mother, I may be dealing with a really cranky baby for a very long time :)

Happy thoughts :)

Sheduled Joy

I have been a little sick this weekend. It is a really yucky sinus infection or something, so I have a wonderful headache :) My daughter is sick too, poor baby.
I am so glad that I am in a better frame of mind lately. Before, if I got sick, I would hide under the covers and feel miserable and sorry for myself. But not now. I refuse to feel worse than I have to. I think healthy thoughts, I take care of myself and I go on with my routine. I mean, I feel like I am like twelve months pregnant right now, so it is a little more difficult, but I still do my best. I used to take time out of my day to focus on how crappy I was feeling, and now I refuse to do it. I will focus on the positive, even when I am feeling under the weather, and I really do feel better faster.
I was thinking about this the other day. The fact that I used to waste time on negative thoughts and feelings, when I should have been focusing on positive things instead. It actually occurred to me when I was reading a post on the pregnancy site I visit. A woman was talking about how her husband is going away in April, and when she marked it on the calendar she realized it was the one year anniversary of her mother's death. She was unsure if she wanted her husband to go away, because she planned on being upset on this day.
I was thinking that it seems weird to me that people schedule time for sadness. I understand that it would be a rough day, I would be upset too. But why are we so much more likely to schedule sadness than joy? I have decided that I will not 'schedule' sadness anymore. I mean when it comes I will feel it, and deal with it, and experience it. But I will no longer plan for it. I am choosing to plan for happiness and joy. I won't hide from sadness, but I won't go looking for it either!

Have a great day :)

The Journey

I am feeling pretty agitated right now. I know why, It is completely clear to me. I woke up in a really great mood, then after one phone call I am feeling miserable. Why do I let others have so much influence over my mood? Possibly because I am a sucker? No, because sometimes I forget to be as positive as I want to be and I take on other people's negative issues. I shouldn't do it. But hey, I am only human. So I guess it is bound to happen once in a while. After all this is a journey, and I am learning as I go.
Right now just writing is actually helping me to get rid of some of the negative feelings and thoughts I was having, who knew? I know that when I am feeling negative a great exercise, for me anyway, is to clearly visualize how I want to be feeling. I also restate my positive goals and then I usually feel better. Today I was just determined to stay grumpy I guess.
Maybe I should start writing down my goals as I blog, then I may think of new ones and keep on going.
Some of my goals are: to have an attitude of gratitude, to be more confident, to see the beauty in everything and everyone, to Practice the Four Agreements: Be impeccable with my word/ Don't take anything personally/ Don't make assumptions/ Always do my best, to let go of the past, to forgive, and to be the change I want to see in the world.
Those are not all of them, it is just part of my list from 43 things, but putting them down again makes me see exactly where I need to focus my energy. I definitely do not have room for negative thoughts.
I am off now, to be more positive for the rest of the day :)

Sending positive thoughts out to you too!

Driving In The Snow

Today the roads have been really terrible. I wasn't aware that so much snow had fallen until I went to take my daughter to school. When I stepped outside all I thought was Yikes!!!
I usually do not have a problem with snow covered roads because I learned to drive in the snow and I just felt really comfortable behind the wheel. But then last month, just before Christmas, I slid off the road on my way to work. I wasn't hurt and I didn't drive into anything or anybody, but it was so scary. Since then I have been feeling less than confident behind the wheel.
So this morning when I saw all the snow I was a little bit nervous. I am very glad to say that I kept the truck on the road, which I am sure is because of my excellent driving skills :) Or, I guess it could be the fact that we just got new tires.
When I was almost to work I saw another girl skid off the road, though. It was quite scary because she was in the oncoming lane and I thought she might hit me. But thankfully she was alright and just slid onto the shoulder.
I kept driving at first because I figured that she would be able to pull back out and I saw that she was safely out of the way of traffic, but then I started feeling bad. I kept looking in my rear view mirror waiting for her to pull out and she didn't. I was wondering how much help I could be, and telling myself she would be alright. But finally I had to turn around and make sure.
I am so glad that I did. I know what it feels like to have people drive by and not see if you are alright. When it happened to me last month, nobody stopped. I was halfway home (walking in the crazy deep snow on the side of the highway) when someone gave me a ride. I really appreciated that man's help, and I was so happy that he was there when I needed him.
When I pulled up I could see that she had been crying and she seemed very shook up. I gave her a ride to work, and then I went on my way. I feel really good about this, and she was so grateful.
However, I am a little disappointed that I hesitated before I helped. It made me wonder why. Why do we hesitate when someone needs us? I think that this was an opportunity for me to realize that all the people who drove past me were not mean or horrible. They were just like me. I mean I almost drove on and I knew what it felt like. I am so glad that this happened because now I know to be aware. I need to be more aware of other people, and I need to be more prepared to help when I can.
I think sometimes we get so caught up in our own stuff, that we block out a lot of things around us. I guess I can use this as a learning experience. Now that I am aware of how much I might be missing, I will really try to keep my eyes open. Next time I want to be the girl who stops her car right away and lends a hand. I am going to make a huge effort to keep my eyes open. There are people all around me who may need my help, and I really want to be there for them.
It may only be something as little as a smile to brighten someones day, but I want to start paying attention.
I think we should all try and brighten someone else's day, what a world this could be :)

I hope everyone has a fabulous day. Keep your eyes open!