Cleaning Up!

I have been feeling out of sorts lately. I don't usually use that phrase, but I don't know how else to describe it.
I was grumpy, irritable and just feeling altogether dissatisfied. I couldn't figure it out. I have everything I thought I always wanted and life is going great.
The only change is that I have been going deeper while trying to work out some of my personal issues and I have really been trying to figure out who I am. I am reading some amazing books and articles. I am learning a lot of helpful new affirmations and visualization techniques, and I feel like I am really heading in the right direction.
So why am I feeling so junky???
Today while I was having my shower I think I figured it out. It is my perfectionism taking over!
You may be wondering why the shower triggered this revelation but it will all make perfect sense in a minute, trust me;)
OK, so one of my stops on this journey of self-discovery was to the Fly lady. I really love her group and have received a lot of very helpful and informative e-mails since I joined.
Well last week as I was reading my fly lady e-mails I came across one from a woman who had written in about her shower.
Apparently she had a really dirty shower and she kept putting off cleaning it because the thought of doing the whole thing until it was perfect was overwhelming. She finally realized that her perfectionism was taking over and that some scrubbing is better than no scrubbing. If she could just give up trying to be perfect and use baby steps eventually it would be done.
I am sure this is what I have been doing to myself.
I have been so bogged down with trying to be perfect or with being overwhelmed by the amount of things I need to work through. I wanted to fix all of my problems NOW and I wasn't getting anywhere.
So in the shower I clued in. Instead of getting frustrated and overwhelmed at how much work, or self-improving, I have to do I need to start small. I need to take baby steps. I need to do a little at a time and eventually I will get there.
I am on my way and there is no time limit. I plan on enjoying this journey, so I will not ruin it by trying to make it perfect. I am going to enjoy myself every step of the way. I am so grateful for all of my experiences.

Today I am especially grateful because I learned something about myself....and my shower is really clean:)

Create

Okay, honestly, I am completely off track right now. But I feel so excited about all of my possibilities. I am not eating the way I should, I am not living the life I know that I want to and yet I am still feeling excitement. I know that the possibilities are endless, and I can't wait to visualize my future full of happiness and gratitude and surprises. I can't wait to bring it into reality. I read today about vision boards, and it reminded me that I had planned to do one for myself ages ago. I want one for my future, things like home and health and family. I also want one for financial abundance and possibly my future career. I am so glad that I read about vision boards today because now I feel like I will finally get focused on doing this. I feel a little flame of excitement burning inside of me. If just imagining my vision board can make me feel this positive and excited, imagine how well it will work for me when I have actually created it. I know what is important to me and I visualize as often as I can about how I want my life to be, I am so excited to add this extra tool to my visualization. Creating this board will make me so much more powerful in my visualizing activities. I cannot wait - so off I go to get started.

The possibilities are endless - I love that :)

Oh Baby!

I haven't written in quite a while. Things have been pretty busy around here. Getting ready for the baby and spending a lot of quality time with our daughter.
I am starting to get a little nervous about my delivery, but I am sure it will go smoothly :) There is some positive thinking!
As of now my doctor is saying that I will be induced on the 6th, so I have two weeks to go. Time has really flown.
I feel good, and I think we are almost ready around here. I kind of wish it was May though and I was already finished, hee hee!
I am looking for ways to use visualization during my delivery, because I am trying to avoid meds. I am sure I will do wonderfully, and my husband will be there so that is all I need.
Anyway, I am obviously preoccupied with baby stuff right now, so I guess that is it for today.

Sending positive thoughts to everyone :)

Scattered Thoughts

When I envision my blog, what do I see? I want to be uplifting and share positive thoughts and feelings with others. I want to have a place to explore my feelings and let them flow. I want to learn more about myself and find new and creative ways to explore my thoughts. I really want to express my creativity and have fun doing it.
I think I will start by maybe picking a book and exploring an idea in it. For now I will read through my copy of Creative Visualization and see what I come up with. I am sure there are some interesting exercises in there and I will work on some of them.
I am looking for inspiration right now. I really want to focus my energy into a positive goal.
I am positive that my husband and I visualized having our baby so strongly that he was created. I think that if we can do that anything is possible. Keeping this in mind I want to give labour a try without any pain medication at all (Yikes, I know). So my ultimate goal is to find ways to use positive visualization and thoughts to help me through the pain. I'll see what I can find out. I know it is possible, and besides I am a little terrified of the epidural. Even though people keep trying to talk me into it :)
Anyway there are some thoughts for now and things to be researched, that should keep me busy. I am very excited to see what I can come up with. I really believe that I have the power to get through anything with as much ease as possible.
I am off to get started. I'll keep posting!

Hope everyone has a great day :)